Life

Life can get hectic … and then you stop doing the things you love the most. So why is it that our passions get pushed aside when things get tough or busy? That makes me a little down. Having a busy life shouldn’t mean not enjoying anything you do, but lately it has for me. I am still working full time, back to school… and just life. Two kids, a household… and my classes carry a pretty huge workload. This Tuesday was Bella’s 7th birthday… and so there was birthday planning, and my birthday is this up coming Wednesday. Whew, life is a lot to handle.

So an update besides all that I started a new diet on January 4th. I have lost 16 pounds. I lost a lot in the very beginning because I completely restructured my diet and started taking an awesome supplement, resveratrol. I am getting myself a rec membership for my birthday so I can start working out from 6:30 am to 7:30 am every morning, mainly because this is the only free hour I have during the day. All my “free” time is spent doing school work… so what is lost…. I will tell you, my love for this blog hasn’t died… it’s my time and photography, I haven’t been able to take pictures in so long I can’t even tell you.

So Stella needs to get her groove back, and I am hoping that in all this I can, and I am starting with the blog, I am back! So welcome back into my life and my world, I have missed everyone so much.

Some people may wonder why?? Why blog… why share the randomness in your life? Because… it is a great way to unwind, and even release things that may bother you, and even if no one was to read it, it is like once you type those words you have released them…

So as the days progress I can update everyone just a little about the changes in life but for today I am happy to have come back and I already feel so much better!

Random Humor…

Maybe I am really late on this one… but who cares. What happens when you get someone that is sick at work, and trying to pass time… a blog about something a little less than un-important, that may or may no entertain you! I recently discover another way to overcome extreme bordem, and also have you laughing at the same time!

www.textsfromlastnight.com, and yes apparently they have an app for Iphone and Blackberry… which I have yet to go that far… but I love it, it is a random genius in my eyes. We all text with people back and forth… but when someone takes your text and forwards it to this website it becomes the humor that brightens my boring day!!

They enclose the area codes that the text originated from with the text, I guess this improves the ability to search all the texts from your area, and then you will wonder why everyone around you is really insane… lol!! So because I am bored I will share some of the random texts that are posted on the site … the most recently added… (I think I want to find some friends that can entertain me with their texts… because my friends are sure not holding up to some of these…)

(847): Im making the walk of shame with half a box of pizza, its like when youre little and you get a goodie bag leaving the party

(+77): her last google searches are ‘cheap african safari’ and ‘what does lion taste like’

(601): I have taken lazynest to a new level. I took a picture of the notes on the board instead of writing them. I win.

(310): i realized that the internet ruins the joy of a father passing down playboys to his son

(858): last night this guy was hitting on me by showing me the famous people he had in his contacts on his cell… when he asked me if i knew lindsay lohan, i said “whose that? sounds asian”

(423): come home now. i got a twizzler tangled in my hair again

(562): How do i write this on his wall without making it sound like he gave me an std?

(330): Drunk and had dance off with 8 year old. Lost. Still drinking

(630): I just threw up and a whole piece of spaghetti came out of my nose. I don’t even remember eating spaghetti.

(505): With the way things had been going, I was never more excited for a person to cum

Ok… so yes this entertains me… and I love it. I find it very humerous that people get these in their inbox on there phone, and yes I am slighly jealous. I can get some pretty funny stuff, but never this good. Ok so I am random, and if I don’t entertain you… well at least I am entertaining myself!

On a side note I am sick… and I feel like crap. I have been thinking a lot about my blog, but I have been so overwhelmed with life that I have been a real big slack ass! I am so manic that I think I have to get these thoughts under control, and I also have to committ some more me time in my life. Between the Holidays and my kids, and the 275+ kids we provide Christmas to through my job it is a very busy time of the year! I start back to my classes January 6 th… and I am needing to figure out how to balance my life, and I need to figure it out quickly… if there are any suggestions out there… please…. throw them my way….

Random – Woman signing off for now… *muah*

Google Voice

So rarely do I review anything… I am to random to do things like that, and that takes a little more structure than what I am capable of. But a friend of mine sent me an email and asked if I had google voice on my Blackberry, and so I started researching it. I was a little bummed to find out I had to wait to be invited, that sucks… so I searched more about it, and who new you can buy invites on ebay for less than $2. So… when I want something I am the type of person to find a way to get it, right away!

I hit buy it now and within 15 minutes I recieved my invite. So I set it all up. Now I haven’t really used it too much from my phone. I haven’t yet called anyone… but I LOVE the voicemail feature. I have set it up to over ride my voicemail from Tmobile. Anytime someone leaves a message I get an email, and it tells me what they said in text, and I still have the option to play it and listen to it. Now, let me tell you why this is so very awesome. I hate voicemail and I rarely check it. So when I do there is generally 14+ messages. So whats the point right… they are then old and really pointless. By the time I listen to them I have probably spoke with that person or texted them several times. With this I don’t have to check them, they come through like a text message and my life is easier, and I don’t have to fuss with something I didn’t like doing in the first place. THANK YOU GOOGLE!

I also get a cool little widget that I can put here on the blog and you can call me… as if you wanted to hear my sexy voice, nope you are not ready for that, trust me, lol! I get a google phone number in case I don’t want to give out my real number, keep the stalkers at bay… great idea! I can screen all calls, and have the ability to block numbers… awesome feature from a cell… LOVE IT!

I am quite impressed with google and all there little gadgets and apps that they have. I have been using goog-411 for awhile, and have it saved into my phone, love it. It is super simple and always gives me what I need super quick, I used to use 1-800-Free-411, and omg that sucked!

I am still playing around with google voice, I have set some special voicemail messages to specific people, which I think is great, and I may abuse this feature when someone pisses me off… they probably won’t want to call me… but I recommend this to anyone that has a capable phone… and if you don’t it’s probably time for you to upgrade anyways… if you are excited about this ( I do have the ability to excite people.. in many ways, haha!) go ahead and check out ebay for an invite, spend the 1.80 and get yours, I am glad I did… otherwise make sure you request your invite, if you are one of those patient people.

I need an intervention

Ok… so we once spoke of an addiction to Twitter… long ago, and it has literally been months since I tweeted, yet I have been going through a lot and trying to get many aspects of my life situated. Yet… I have seemed to wondered into a new addiction. Now I have always been on Facebook, which is great, I have linked up with so many friends that I thought I would never talk to again, and that is great! This is not the problem. The problem is these damn games on Facebook. I started playing one or two. Now there is at least 7 that I play daily. Shit, 3 are fishtank games…. WHY?!?!

It is fine when a game is played to pass time, when you have down time… but when you play a game at work, like Cafe World, my personal favorite… and you realize when you get home that you have something “cooking” in your cafe … and you log on to make sure you get it off the oven before it goes bad. THIS IS A FREAKIN PROBLEM!

If I play a game at work to pass time, I should not be that worried if some virtual food goes bad… what is really going on….

So… I am going to knock down the amount of games to maybe 3 at the most… and I am going to see how that works…. I want to know… so you know someone with Facebook game addictions? This really is crazy… like I barely have time to do anything, and this blog has been neglected for far to long…. I have such an urge to go out during the weekend and evenings and start back with the photography… I must reclaim my life.

So… as of next week…. I start back to the gym, and I start prioritizing my life, there needs to be some balance to my life… this is something I have no doubt about!

When life gives you Lemons….

I vowed to not leave you and disappear, yet I did it anyways, maybe I am turning into a man… oops did I say that outloud? (Bitter Much, LMAO!) I recently just got settled into my new apartment, and this past Sunday I had everything completely unpacked. I should have gotten it done a little sooner since I moved into the place October 30th.

Recently, life hasn’t just handed me a lemon, life gave me the whole damn lemon tree! On October 23rd I went to the ER with horrible ear pain, and I was sure it was an ear infection. Let me tell you, I would have rather gone through natural child birth all over than experience the pain I was feeling! After sitting in the waiting area for about 3 hours I finally went back, and they looked in my ear and said that it didn’t appear to be infected, but I did have fluid behind it from my sinus’s draining! Then came the Morphine…. and an hour later when I was still in pain… the percocet. They ended up sending me home with pain drops and cough medicine.

Two days later…. on my daughter’s 3rd Birthday, after the party, I went back to the ER, the pain was worse and I had lost hearing in my left ear. The brightside was that I didn’t wait as long to go back. Guess what, my ear was infected, surprise surprise! They said my ear drum was intact, gave me a prescription for antibiotics and percocets and informed me it may be a little while before I can hear again.

So, I suffered… 7 days of antibiotics and I will not even go into the drainage coming from my ear. I started having horrible migraines and I was in constant pain… so on 11/3 I went back to the ER. A four hour wait to be called back and when I got back there, wow they took me seriously this time. So bring on the Morphine, yet again… IV antibiotics… and the amazement of the doctors, and looks on their faces when I told them this was my 3rd trip to the ER in 12 days about the same thing, yet it has worsened. So it was time for a CT Scan. That came back not so great. What happens when they don’t treat an er infection properly is Mastoiditis. The infection moves into the bone behind the ear, the Mastoid bone. This can ultimately lead to brain absesses, and then death. So I have now been released into the care of The Ear Nose and Throat Doctors and Surgeons. I am taking antibiotics both orally and in my ear, plus the pain meds. I go back this Friday and pray the infection is gone, because the only other option is them cutting my head open and cutting the infected part of the bone out.

I guess one main thing I want you to be aware of is, remember this … even though the cost of medical care is increasing, it doesn’t mean that doctor’s IQ’s are!!! All it would have taken was the right antibiotic from the first visit and I would have never had to go through this.

When life gives you lemons, they say you should make lemonade… well I am not thirsty…
When life hands me lemons…. I squeeze them in someone’s eye and run…. the excitement is worth it!

Randomness is a Gift…

Ok, so I am still in the process of moving, with battling the flu and a ear infection in between. So I haven’t blogged, well a great friend and co-worker demanded that I blogged today … and when I looked at her and said about what… she said, “I will text you a picture from my phone and I want you to blog about it.”

Ahhh… a challenge, that sounds fun. I love randomness, and this was like a game of randomness… so I recieved the picture and would like to share it with everyone, because it is the reason for the blog today!

Ok… so Shauna wants me to explore my creativity … this is what she gives me… Banana’s! Well when I look at this picture the first thing that comes to mind is an age old question. “Does size really matter?” And so many say no, others say yes, when their significant others aren’t around. So who wants the truth? Is there really any women that say size doesn’t matter and they mean it? Personally anytime I have said it, it has been a lie. It does matter. If you are small the chances that you will satify me are pretty slim… and now I am not going to strictly pick on “smaller” men because you can be too big too!! I for sure don’t want to be scared when you drop your pants and think “OMG, where are you going to try and put that?”

There is a huge relevance in size… too small is honestly a waste of my time and yours, too big is something that results in more pain less pleasure… so what do you think, does size matter to you? Is it really in the “motion of the ocean?” Because honestly you may be able to “work it” but if it can’t reach certain spots you can work your ass right off of me….. just sayin….

And my question is…. Shauna, why the hell do you have this picture in your cell phone?

Not before my coffee….

Wow, day to day you wonder what you can blog about next… then life happens and you have to search no where for that answer! It’s only 9:30 am and yet I already have had an eventful day. With all thanks to the crazy and stupid people of the world. Yes, stranage stupid man in the red piece of shit car, thank you! Thank you for pissing me off this morning… and allowing me to speak of what a freakin retard you truly are!!

So we are irratated by stupid people, but today they get their thanks, because they give us something to talk about…. This morning, I was turning into the parking lot at work (keep in mind I do NOT work in a safe area of town). I stopped with my turn signal on, and as I was about to turn I saw the moron behind me passing me and I stopped from turning, and of course blew my horn. Once he passed by me, I turned in and parked. He pulled off the road and wanted to start something, keep in mind he didn’t get of his car.

Daniel and my youngest was in the car cause they were dropping me off (Daniel is my ex) because the little one is sick and my car is going to get an oil change. Well when he got out the car to get in the driver’s seat they had some words, so the guy acted as if he was going to get out of the car, yet he didn’t. So then of course me and my loud mouth started going, the whole time this guy acted like he was going to get out or shoot us, IDK which one… but it takes more than he is capable to intimidate me….

He is very lucky that we weren’t somewhere else and I was standing where I work… cause I might have grabbed his dreads and yanked his ass out the window… for one simple principle…. I hadn’t had my morning coffee!

What does being single mean to you?

So this question was asked of me just last night. In all actuality I should have responded with a sarcastic response, especially because of who was doing the asking, and because of how the topic even came up…

So what does that mean to you??? When you are single what is the first thing you think about being single? I am sure there are those that embrace it by saying “I can do whatever or whoever I want… ” and that is why this question was directed at me… because of a sexual response, like I was going to say well I am single so I can f*&k whoever I want! Yeah, if I was a d@*k hungry wh*@e, (yes I am trying to be nice people) I would probably think that way, but being single to me is more empowering than being able to sleep with anyone that I want.

What is even sadder is, there are actually chicks that think of life like that… stuck in that “girls gone wild” state of mind. Yeah it may be a carefree way of living, but I like myself way too much for that, and I think all those little bitches should maybe start to like themselves a little more too… oh well, if you don’t like it don’t read it!!

Anyways… so do you even care enough to know where this is going??? So my response to this question is simple being single means I have myself, I worry about me, I love me (and the kids of course). I do things for myself and I am with myself, it is empowering and I do enjoy me time, so you call me selfish then? My question is when you are in a relationship that doesn’t work out for whatever reason, and you are single after years of being in a relationship do you run to the next person or do you enjoy the time you have to yourself, and allow your self to be selfish and enjoy the way that feels.

I know this is a odd topic and question, yet I am still astounded that there are those that have to be up someone’s ass all the time, and there are those that use sex to move from one “thing or fling” to the next, yet I think the people that do that do it cause they are co-dependant, or because they don’t love themselves, shit maybe even because they don’t even like themselves enough to be alone with themselves, but what I think about that is, if you don’t like yourself enough to be alone with yourself, how is the hell do you think someone else will like you long enough to stay with you for a given period of time????

Just Sayin…..

So much on my mind

I have been going through a huge block when I think about blogging. Yet today I have so much on my mind that I am unsure what I should talk about. So I think today I will keep it simple… an update!

I will be moving into my own place by the end of the month, which I am super excited about! I have been living with an awesome friend and her son since August. She has made us very much at home!! Yet most know it’s nothing like having your own place. So … Yay!!!! I have taken this term out of school to make this move as least stressful as possible, as if moving can ever not be stressful, ha!

My concerns in moving is the apartment is great, but very small. I am going from a packed 3 bedroom house to a 2 bedroom apartment, which is a very small two bedroom apartment. So this weekend the plans are to go to my packed 10×15 storage unit and start deciding what I am keeping and what is being sold, yup YARD SALE!

That brings me to having a yard sale at the end of the month, which I have always done awesome at yard sales, so that is a good thing! I cannot do it this weekend, because our Black Tie Charity event for work is this Friday and then Saturday and Sunday I have to make decisions about the stuff, and the weekend of the 17th, I am doing a 3 mile Breast Cancer walk!!! (YAY for that too!) So the next Saturday will be the 24th, which is the weekend before I move and also a day before my youngest, GiGi’s 3rd Birthday, whew this is going to be a busy month. Yet, busy and fun!!

So maybe you will just be lucky enough for me to be back during a hectic time which of course will lead to some great laughs I am sure, cause never is my life dull or boring… So buckle up this is going to be an exciting month….

ps. I missed you guys!!

:-)

I know that it has been awhile, and I am almost back for good. I have been doing a lot of reflecting on things in general, well when I am not busy with the kids, school or work! I am also in a final week of my semester. Finals are due on Tuesday, so …. I am stressed, well actually stressed doesn’t even really touch on the emotions I have been experiencing.

As everyone knows I have been going through a ton of changes in life, which some are good and the others are a little less desirable. I have so much to say… but when it’s time to type, write or speak it’s like dead air. Yet I figured if I posted “it will come” LMAO… so I am taking the first step to displaying my randomness all over again. Worse off, I have been on twitter in weeks…. the good news is once these finals are out of the way I will be back like never before!!

So, I have missed everyone, and as long as I don’t have a heart attack before Tuesday, please clap for me cause I am back…. YAY!!

“Irony … is hating what love has done to me….”