Since I have been hit or miss recently and been a huge slacker on my blog, there are some things that no one knows. January 4th, 2010 was the first day of trying to eat better and finally lose this weight that has been driving me insane. Well I decided to lower my calorie intake and watch everything I ate, and record it for free on Fitday.com. It worked I lost about 15 pounds already! In doing this I started really enjoying eating healthy. So I have decided that I don’t want to diet, yet I want to change my lifestyle. So I have been doing a lot of reading on fitnessmagazine.com, ecomii.com and eatbetteramerica.com. These three websites are great. It is a big job looking and trying to learn how to change habits I have had my entire life. I find it interesting learning new things regarding foods and I am understanding the organic craze. In this research I have done I am excited in making these changes, I think that people are so intimidated by eating healthy, and also it does appear true also that to eat healthy it is a little more expensive, yet how much more? When you consider that eating healthy can eliminate health problems, which saves money on doctor visits and medications, I don’t think that it is that much more expensive.

I will definitely share information that I find along the way, and I basically have to study to write out my grocery list, but I am sure it will all start coming naturally!

Last night I had something weighing heavy on my heart right before I went to bed, so even though I was tired I decided to open my journal and write… and as soon as I was done I felt so relieved. I have been on her recently talking about not letting my blogging slip away because of my “oh so hectic life,” but I am guilty I did it again!

So, in the time that I play my facebook games or sit down with my cereal and my macbook in the morning I am promising myself that I will not just stop doing the things that make me happy because I feel like I have no time. When I started this blog I was dealing with a lot of things in my life and it helped me to vent. I love this and I love the people that take the time to read what I have to say whether it is 10 people or 2 people.

On that note, with my randomness that everyone just loves, I have something that bothers me from time to time and I find myself thinking about it quite often. Yes it’s one of those things that some people love to talk about and other’s cringe at the thought, Religion. My religious views are pretty different from just about anyone that I know, with the exception of a few people. Most of my friends are pretty proud Christians and the other half rarely speak of religion at all. I grew up in a non religious family, and when my mother traveled towards religions she levitated towards Buddhism. My step-father was something like Lutheran (I am not familiar with any of the politics of Christianity, like Lutheran, Baptist etc…).

Because of this as you must imagine I learned a lot about Buddhism and I have always been fascinated by it. Yet I have my own belief’s therefore I really don’t fall under the classification of any one religion. The Dalai Lama is my hero and I think that he is one of the greatest people that ever walked this earth. I love all the philosophies of Buddhism, pure compassion being one with everything and not thinking that I am superior to any living being. I do believe in Karma. I think that afterlife is more than just heaven and hell, but I do believe those places exist. I do go to church on Easter Sunday with my daughter’s and Daniel. My children say grace every night, on their own; they are brought up as Christians. Yet, I don’t think I am a Buddhist or a Christian or even a Hindu, yet I believe in all aspects of religion.

Yet I am judged by those closest to me because I don’t believe exactly how they believe. Yet in Buddhism you are not to judge and this is the same in Christianity, but even those that are most religious judge me because I don’t fall under any specific category. The Dalai Lama once said “My Religion is Kindness.” This is why I love him and find him so wise.

All I have to say is this I believe in ALL paths to God.

Life can get hectic … and then you stop doing the things you love the most. So why is it that our passions get pushed aside when things get tough or busy? That makes me a little down. Having a busy life shouldn’t mean not enjoying anything you do, but lately it has for me. I am still working full time, back to school… and just life. Two kids, a household… and my classes carry a pretty huge workload. This Tuesday was Bella’s 7th birthday… and so there was birthday planning, and my birthday is this up coming Wednesday. Whew, life is a lot to handle.

So an update besides all that I started a new diet on January 4th. I have lost 16 pounds. I lost a lot in the very beginning because I completely restructured my diet and started taking an awesome supplement, resveratrol. I am getting myself a rec membership for my birthday so I can start working out from 6:30 am to 7:30 am every morning, mainly because this is the only free hour I have during the day. All my “free” time is spent doing school work… so what is lost…. I will tell you, my love for this blog hasn’t died… it’s my time and photography, I haven’t been able to take pictures in so long I can’t even tell you.

So Stella needs to get her groove back, and I am hoping that in all this I can, and I am starting with the blog, I am back! So welcome back into my life and my world, I have missed everyone so much.

Some people may wonder why?? Why blog… why share the randomness in your life? Because… it is a great way to unwind, and even release things that may bother you, and even if no one was to read it, it is like once you type those words you have released them…

So as the days progress I can update everyone just a little about the changes in life but for today I am happy to have come back and I already feel so much better!